Last sunday I had a great time. Sunday felt like Sunday after a very long time. The two of us went boating, watched the dolphins as the sun disappeared in to the horizon. After the drive, we religiously headed to the usual restaurant, had a good dinner and were back home. While lying on my bed I thought Sunday felt good and then suddenly I was lying there and talking to myself. I realized that its been long since I have thought about myself. I have been busy with visiting others and others visiting me....but been long since I visited myself. For me, things have changed after marriage, I mean my personality, my priorities, my thoughts, my nature...and suddenly OMG!! I do not identify with my own self anymore. In the daily race between priorities of home and family, so many things have changed in me. Time for some introspection. I feel lonely most of the times and try to keep myself busy with stupid activities. Sadly I never tried to sit peacefully and think....about myself. I never liked being alone, somehow I was missing the absence of the others in my life and was not enjoying the presence of my own self. My encounter with solitude gave me a chance to think about myself.
As I lay in the bed I got so many answers to the burning questions in my life some silly and some serious. Well surprisingly it wasn’t anyone else who gave me the solutions rather it was me who made myself realize my troubleshooting potential....my inner strengths, my determination, ambitions, courage, dreams. I think in the daily rush and demanding relationships, I had lost myself. That night I rediscovered myself...thanks to my solitude. Till that day the word was just another word in the dictionary, but now i know the importance of it. It feels good to visit yourself once in a while and rekindle your inner strengths.
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